i guess this is growing up

so let me put a little disclaimer for those who read this and get concerned.
me blogging about not being sure about my future is my way of getting those thoughts out in the open. i'm not all sad about it and having a major breakdown. i realize that these struggles are normal and healthy. sometimes i think about things like not going into youth ministry, but i quickly dismiss the thought and don't take time to actually process these thoughts. blogging about my future for me is my way of getting things out in the open. so in that regard this is serving it's purpose.

i woke up this morning thinking about the next time i can sleep. i realized this is pathetic, but i love sleeping.

i am considering starting another blog for serious stuff. this one would be for mostly dumb things and me rationalizing how i spend my time.

finals are next week. finals are no fun because i need to find a balance between studying and trying to finish classes well and hanging out with people i won't see again for a long time. chances are i will slack off on the school work and hang out and do exciting things that i will tell my children about when i grow older.