don't you ever get lonely.

spring break has come and gone.
i went to seattle and everywhere inbetween with some good friends. twas a much needed break from normal iowa life.
i saw a concert in seattle and it was fantastic for many reasons. it was an all around great show the bands that performed were say anything, manchester orchestra, biffy clyro, and weatherbox. this show was also monumental becuase it was the first show i was able to enjoy an adult beverage. i only had one for those who wanted to judge me. while all the bands were good manchester orchestra's set stayed with me. their lyrics are very spiritual and seeing them live was incredible. i felt like i was worshiping while listening to them play live. they ended their set with a song called where have you been. the recorded version of the song ends with the lead singer repeating "God, where have you been." when they played it live they did repeat this at the end, but when the song finished the lead singer continued to sing. i wish i could remember exactly what he said but it was something about being dead and being brought to life. it brought a fantastic resolution to the song and to their set. i loved it.

but my spring break is now a memory and it is now time to face the reality that the rest of this semester is going to fly.

i could use a vacation, my eyes are bored

dead man walking is done.
the heaviness of the show finally hit me in the last 3 productions. i spent so much time thinking about the play being about the death penalty because that was the issue that everyone wanted to talk about. i realized that my character showed hope and forgiveness at the end of the show, but the importance of forgiveness never touched me. it took me till the last few performances to realize that my character was embodying forgiveness. i played a man who had his son taken from him, but is willing to forgive his sons killer. while it probably didn't show on stage, this made a huge difference in the way i felt inside while performing.
the final night we received our first standing ovation.
it was a flood of emotions. for some reason that performance greatly effected me. i can't say exactly what happened.
once i saw everyone standing i began to cry. i have never cried during a curtain call.
it is so hard for me to describe what happened.
the whole cast went out to shake hands and hug, many of us had tears in our eyes. if you were to ask anyone in the cast what made that performance so emotional i don't think anyone could tell you.

theatre is powerful.

tonight i found out that i was nominated to participate in the irene ryan competition at actf. for those who don't understand, for each major production that dordt puts on 3 actors out of the cast get the to go to actf to participate in a acting competition. i am incredibly honored.

i'm tired.
spring break is just around the corner. plans to go to seattle are being finalized.
i am ever so excited.