i am sitting in front of my computer in the dark. the roommates are asleep and i just plain don't feel like going to bed yet. dead man walking opened tonight. i should get some rest and prepare for another long day tomorrow, but i don't want to. there are some nights when i am blessed with the ability to think clearly. tonight isn't one of those nights, but the previous three nights were. for some reason i was on sensory overload. lately i have been trying to listen so closely to God's calling that it is almost driving me crazy. i try to find symbolism behind everything. anything i see, hear, think, smell could be a sign from God. i take everything and try to overanalyze it trying to figure out exactly what i need to learn. i feel like this is a good exercise, trying to find God in everything, but i guess lately i haven't been able to make sense of what i have been perceiving as signs. it is really getting frustrating. again this basically comes down to me not trusting God's time for my life. i not allowing God to work in the way he wants to, i am trying to make him talk to me and tell me what i want to hear. this is where the problem starts i interpret everything as God telling me what i want to hear.
i needed to type that.
tx was saturday. the benedict affair dominated it.
for those who were not present here is a video from the event.
enjoy friends.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
we are, we just battle ourselves
tba and ojk did in fact play a dordt show on saturdays eve.
it was so neat playing with ojk again. we sounded good.
playing with tba is also so fantastic.
being in both bands is awesome in different ways.
i like being in ojk because i have a lot of control over the sound. i have written large chunks of many of the songs and the boys came in behind my ideas and made them sound killer. i love playing songs that i wrote that remind me of how i was feeling when i wrote them.
playing with tba i basically just write lead parts to go along with the songs. i don't have as much creative control, but performing with tba is incredible. i just feel completely happy the whole time.
again playing in both bands rules.
do not even try to make me pick a favorite.
a group of improvisers called 88improv performed at dordt saturday before the show. they did long form improv which basically means they improvised a 45 minute play. it had a clear beginning rising action climax and ending. basically it was incredible. i was inspired to take my improvising more seriously.
i love going to wellspring. for those who aren't familiar it is basically a time of guided meditation. i realized that for me meeting with God is when i am being very intentional with my thoughts. so many times i just blow through the day and not take the time to process what i actually thought. when i take time to stop and process and be intentional with what i am thinking i feel more receptive to God's plan for my life.
it was so neat playing with ojk again. we sounded good.
playing with tba is also so fantastic.
being in both bands is awesome in different ways.
i like being in ojk because i have a lot of control over the sound. i have written large chunks of many of the songs and the boys came in behind my ideas and made them sound killer. i love playing songs that i wrote that remind me of how i was feeling when i wrote them.
playing with tba i basically just write lead parts to go along with the songs. i don't have as much creative control, but performing with tba is incredible. i just feel completely happy the whole time.
again playing in both bands rules.
do not even try to make me pick a favorite.
a group of improvisers called 88improv performed at dordt saturday before the show. they did long form improv which basically means they improvised a 45 minute play. it had a clear beginning rising action climax and ending. basically it was incredible. i was inspired to take my improvising more seriously.
i love going to wellspring. for those who aren't familiar it is basically a time of guided meditation. i realized that for me meeting with God is when i am being very intentional with my thoughts. so many times i just blow through the day and not take the time to process what i actually thought. when i take time to stop and process and be intentional with what i am thinking i feel more receptive to God's plan for my life.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
i've seen the best and worst of you
i have this constant problem when i sit down to blog.
i can never remember how much information i offered the last time i wrote.
perhaps the solution to this problem is to blog more frequently.
tx is rapidly approaching which means i will be busy. i have to run sound for auditions tonight from 6 till whenever sac decides to release me from their torturous grip.
there is a strong chance tba and ojk will be playing a dordt show this weekend. if you read this and are not involved in either of those bands i urge you to come and revel in good music. dordt has several extremely talented bands, but for some reason it is impossible to get people to come out and enjoy it.
friday night jeremiah and i went to see as i lay dying, august burns red, and evergreen terrace play a heavy metal show. great success! heavy shows rule so so much. regardless of what musical styling you prefer (unless you trace every musical style back to bob dylan) should go to at least one hardcore show before death. august burns red is currently blasting through my speakers and i am loving it. they put on one the most intense sets i have ever seen in my life.
for my discernment for ministry class we had to work on a "worship practice". i decided as my worship practice that i would simply sit down and play guitar. i frequently dink around on the guitar while i'm checking my email and such things, but i don't really take the time to enjoy it. i have found a time in the day when all the roomates are gone and it proves to be very relaxing.
i can never remember how much information i offered the last time i wrote.
perhaps the solution to this problem is to blog more frequently.
tx is rapidly approaching which means i will be busy. i have to run sound for auditions tonight from 6 till whenever sac decides to release me from their torturous grip.
there is a strong chance tba and ojk will be playing a dordt show this weekend. if you read this and are not involved in either of those bands i urge you to come and revel in good music. dordt has several extremely talented bands, but for some reason it is impossible to get people to come out and enjoy it.
friday night jeremiah and i went to see as i lay dying, august burns red, and evergreen terrace play a heavy metal show. great success! heavy shows rule so so much. regardless of what musical styling you prefer (unless you trace every musical style back to bob dylan) should go to at least one hardcore show before death. august burns red is currently blasting through my speakers and i am loving it. they put on one the most intense sets i have ever seen in my life.
for my discernment for ministry class we had to work on a "worship practice". i decided as my worship practice that i would simply sit down and play guitar. i frequently dink around on the guitar while i'm checking my email and such things, but i don't really take the time to enjoy it. i have found a time in the day when all the roomates are gone and it proves to be very relaxing.
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