the winter's tale closes tonight.
it has been a long ridiculous run. this play has been incredibly difficult for everyone. honestly the play has been the least of some people's worries. a lot of personal things for a lot of the cast have come up during these last few weeks and it is getting hard for the cast to deal with. i don't really feel like going into details. i have learned from this play that theatre can be so emotionally involving that all the little backstage problems can seem like a big deal when they are not. when you are with a small group of people for the amount of time that a cast is together it seems like there is no other world outside the theatre, but this show his helped me realize that there is way more going on. and that is all i really want to say about that.
last night we had a cast party at our director's house. it was nice to kick back with the cast and not stress out.
this morning i slept in for the first time since getting back to dordt.
on tuesday i saw mewithoutyou thrice and brand new in concert. hooray. i could go into detail but i don't think it would be interesting so to be brief it was neat.
my parents came out for parents weekend. i love my family.
in other dumb news my iron lung (my ipod) has died. i might go a little batty if i don't find a music playing device to replace it soon. but again this is one of those insignificant problems that i should probably put out of mind.
have a nice day reader.
Friday, October 19, 2007
forgive me i'm trying to find my calling.
so last night was opening night of the play.
i am at a good point. i did well but i can do better.
since the last post ojk played a show and i officially got out of debt. we sold several cds and got paid to play the show. hooray.
this week was exhausting. i had dress rehersals every night and our first performance last night. along with that i had 2 tests.
i have learned something about myself. i don't get stressed i get depressed. for absolutely no reason this week i was sad and felt crappy. my happy streak was broken and that was kindof sad. however now that i am done with my tests and have one performance under my belt i am instantly in a better mood. thus i am lead to believe that i don't get stressed i get depressed. that line is so catchy i am going to write a song about it.
the other day i was sitting in one of my little youth ministry classes and became discouraged again. looking back it may have been a symptom of the stress. people started to throw out what i would consider to be Christian cliches. one example goes as follows, "we should stop being so complacent and go out and help the poor." that is great and i agree we do need to acknowledge poverty but to me it seems like helping the poor is the easiest and most gratifying mission field that people can get into. it seems to me that this just becomes cliche and another easy answer to gratify ourselves as Christians.
now i am not saying that these people are wrong. i agree totally that Christians need to engage the problem of poverty and make an attempt to stop it. i wish more power to the people that want to stop poverty but i am afraid that if i go into the mission field i won't be like that. i don't feel like i am the stereotypical youth minister and i don't want to be that at all. i don't know how that relates to peopel who feel strongly about poverty but in my head it does. please don't read this the wrong way and think i am a bad person.
i heard a song that struck a chord with me. it was remembering sunday by all time low.
ps. i'm tired of band stuff. i'm really getting fed up with not being able to just do what i want to do and be happy doing it. i love ojk and am not leaving the band but if there is no conflict i don't know why i have to take unlimited amounts of shit just to play a show with the benedict affair in a town that is 2 hours away.
for the first time today the thought of quiting both bands popped into my head and that scares me.
and with that thought i am done.
i am at a good point. i did well but i can do better.
since the last post ojk played a show and i officially got out of debt. we sold several cds and got paid to play the show. hooray.
this week was exhausting. i had dress rehersals every night and our first performance last night. along with that i had 2 tests.
i have learned something about myself. i don't get stressed i get depressed. for absolutely no reason this week i was sad and felt crappy. my happy streak was broken and that was kindof sad. however now that i am done with my tests and have one performance under my belt i am instantly in a better mood. thus i am lead to believe that i don't get stressed i get depressed. that line is so catchy i am going to write a song about it.
the other day i was sitting in one of my little youth ministry classes and became discouraged again. looking back it may have been a symptom of the stress. people started to throw out what i would consider to be Christian cliches. one example goes as follows, "we should stop being so complacent and go out and help the poor." that is great and i agree we do need to acknowledge poverty but to me it seems like helping the poor is the easiest and most gratifying mission field that people can get into. it seems to me that this just becomes cliche and another easy answer to gratify ourselves as Christians.
now i am not saying that these people are wrong. i agree totally that Christians need to engage the problem of poverty and make an attempt to stop it. i wish more power to the people that want to stop poverty but i am afraid that if i go into the mission field i won't be like that. i don't feel like i am the stereotypical youth minister and i don't want to be that at all. i don't know how that relates to peopel who feel strongly about poverty but in my head it does. please don't read this the wrong way and think i am a bad person.
i heard a song that struck a chord with me. it was remembering sunday by all time low.
ps. i'm tired of band stuff. i'm really getting fed up with not being able to just do what i want to do and be happy doing it. i love ojk and am not leaving the band but if there is no conflict i don't know why i have to take unlimited amounts of shit just to play a show with the benedict affair in a town that is 2 hours away.
for the first time today the thought of quiting both bands popped into my head and that scares me.
and with that thought i am done.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
i'm proud of my life and the things that i have done.
o blog readers... we have so much to discuss, so much.
tristate has come and gone. work on the play went well. it was exhausting but i felt i made a lot of good character developments.
that is the end of the boring stuff.
so on saturday i went to an incredibly kickin concert. i took a certain female to this concert, but more on that later. mutemath and eisley performed in omaha at potentially one of my favorite venues. eisley is just a cute band to watch. mutemath appeals to every sense. they put on one of the most intense, hyperactive, instrument damaging, shows i have ever seen. not only was their performance intense but they had incredible lights. they sounded fantastic and i smelled good so basically every sense.
my mind was truly blown.
here's a big shocker in my world. i asked the aformentioned girl out on a date after the concert... and i got turned down. she was honest and i greatly appreciated that. i was pretty disappointed because i actually thought i had a chance with this one, but alas my terrible fortunes continue.
while this does suck, i am very proud that i was able to work up the nerve to do this instead of silently having a huge crush and then having it dashed to bits.
but it still sucks.
she was really good about it and i have nothing bad to say about her. to reiterate i only have positve things to say about her.
don't worry friends, i'm not taking the high school approach and destroying my self esteem. no i think i am a pretty cool person and getting denied by a girl does not mean that i suck.
but it still sucks a little bit.
i do just fine my car and this guitar.
and that is all i really feel like saying about that right now.
tristate has come and gone. work on the play went well. it was exhausting but i felt i made a lot of good character developments.
that is the end of the boring stuff.
so on saturday i went to an incredibly kickin concert. i took a certain female to this concert, but more on that later. mutemath and eisley performed in omaha at potentially one of my favorite venues. eisley is just a cute band to watch. mutemath appeals to every sense. they put on one of the most intense, hyperactive, instrument damaging, shows i have ever seen. not only was their performance intense but they had incredible lights. they sounded fantastic and i smelled good so basically every sense.
my mind was truly blown.
here's a big shocker in my world. i asked the aformentioned girl out on a date after the concert... and i got turned down. she was honest and i greatly appreciated that. i was pretty disappointed because i actually thought i had a chance with this one, but alas my terrible fortunes continue.
while this does suck, i am very proud that i was able to work up the nerve to do this instead of silently having a huge crush and then having it dashed to bits.
but it still sucks.
she was really good about it and i have nothing bad to say about her. to reiterate i only have positve things to say about her.
don't worry friends, i'm not taking the high school approach and destroying my self esteem. no i think i am a pretty cool person and getting denied by a girl does not mean that i suck.
but it still sucks a little bit.
i do just fine my car and this guitar.
and that is all i really feel like saying about that right now.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
that boy, he's got...
i am currently completely enthralled with the new say anything music that has appeared online.
i am not sure if i can wait until the 23rd of october for this cd to be released.
i am trying to learn lines for the play which is proving to be more of a problem than once thought.
i am looking forward to tri state break.
i am going to start every sentence in this blog with "i am" i just decided.
i am using this blog as a break from studying lines.
i am still in search of a girlfriend and hoping that all falls together soon.
i am doing a good job of not stressing out this semester.
i am amazed by this good mood that has not stopped over the last few days.
i am still in a good mood.
i am convinced that God speaks through heavy metal.
i am saying this because i saw for today perform in orange city and felt blessed by them.
i am looking forward to suit coat day which is occuring tomorrow.
i am happy for pam and jim and glad to see them together.
i am so pleased with my class schedule.
i am still listening to say anything and very jazzed by their music.
i am going to conclude this blog.
i am not sure if i can wait until the 23rd of october for this cd to be released.
i am trying to learn lines for the play which is proving to be more of a problem than once thought.
i am looking forward to tri state break.
i am going to start every sentence in this blog with "i am" i just decided.
i am using this blog as a break from studying lines.
i am still in search of a girlfriend and hoping that all falls together soon.
i am doing a good job of not stressing out this semester.
i am amazed by this good mood that has not stopped over the last few days.
i am still in a good mood.
i am convinced that God speaks through heavy metal.
i am saying this because i saw for today perform in orange city and felt blessed by them.
i am looking forward to suit coat day which is occuring tomorrow.
i am happy for pam and jim and glad to see them together.
i am so pleased with my class schedule.
i am still listening to say anything and very jazzed by their music.
i am going to conclude this blog.
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